Saturday, February 3, 2007

Let's be broken

It hurts. Life hurts, and it always does. Pain it is or pleasure that it gives to you. Why is it that eternity or immorality is not described? Why is it death that is to bring it? Will it? Let’s die then, huh? That would be endless peace, eternal joy and everlasting rest. But would it? They are lying. Nobody has seen it. Nobody has come with the right, or any answer from there. How can these people talk about it then? Is it enough to give all such a high hope only for a, mostly likely, stupid hypothesis.

Anyway, pain is with you always in this world at least, is inevitable. People carry it in their heart. Some expose, some don’t, but they have it. Some have the pain already and struggle with it, but some make some; unaware they are of the fact, but they do make things harder for themselves, for their friends, for the society, for the politicians, for the poor and the rich, for the world. The bottom-line is you can’t avoid it. You can’t enjoy the moment for good, you can’t be with your friends non-stop, you can’t have somebody forever, and neither can you live eternally. But wait a minute; if there is death, sure you’ve been started at some point. You start to finish one day, you come to go, say hi to farewell, you love to hate, you enjoy to be disgusted, you are born to …. Why it is that only pain is talked about and mostly exaggerated? Why are you afraid of death? Was being born same scary? Maybe it was. Maybe we didn’t choose to live!

But still people have it. Something at some bit of their heart hurts. It’s painful to see a sibling with a better bike, pain it is when you haven’t studied well for your exams, it hurts when the teenager next door has forgotten her “nice” time with you and you see her interlocking her arm around the neck of the bully of the neighbourhood, later it devastates you when you believe nobody, even intimate friends, understands you. After that injustice is imposed on the world and you want to fix it; seeing people suffering hurts. Partner is sought and found, but the procedure hurts, feeling heartbroken hurts. Overdue rent pay hurts, returning loans hurts and worse separation does, feeling lonely does. I wish all pains were so typical. Yet they exist. They have always been there.

But let’s be broken. They will break us. Let’s surprise them; they won’t hurt us anymore. Pain is lying ahead even for the blue-blooded ones, it would come. Let’s surprise the fate by drawing our own pains, then. Shortcomings are a must, but what they to be maybe we can decide. Can’t we? Why rich people suck at everything, why child prodigies die at age 40, why disabled people have outstanding capabilities, why the more beautiful and attractive girls are, at least in Afghanistan, the less they care about expanding their knowledge or adding to their skills? People need pain to be more accurate, to be more concentrating.

I believe it is even worse. Personally, if one day I know all my problems are solved, all challenges are faced with, and eternal joy is attached to my fate, I’ll rest peacefully…. will pass, at once, away.

Too choppy, I know. But what’s wrong with us? With everybody?

[To be continued! maybe]

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have heard it said that success is death, because you have already arrived, while real life happens when you are working towards something and feeling some pain.

Also, if you have been trying very hard for something for a long time, there is eventually a really gloomy moment when all the effort no longer seems worth it. This is usually the moment just before success. It means you have put all the necessary pain, effort and work in.

Anonymous said...

we can't avoid pain at times, but we can sometimes. let's avoid it as far as we can..

Zubaida said...

pains are not to be avoided. they are to be lived with.
it would have been unusual if we did not have pains.

Zubaida said...

as a matter of fact we would unconsciously be living in a very suicidal pain, if we did not have pains....